"Sometimes you make choices in life and sometimes choices make you." IF I STAY (2014)


You can’t hide on that rehearsal room forever. It’s too late. I see you.

I'm not sure this is a world I belong in anymore. I'm not sure that I want to wake up.

I’m still here, and I’m crazy in love with you. Please stay.

Hey guys. Me again. Still in the hospital.

So far, I have been subjected to a bone marrow aspiration and I have almost died due to an allergic reaction to an antibiotic they gave me to try and see what happened. And yes, I am still getting fevers.

The fevers have been less dramatic the last couple of days, but they have still occurred. The doctors still don’t have answers as to what I have. They just know my bone marrow is reacting to a serious inflammation, as is the rest of my body.

At noon, they are doing a bronchoscopy in order to explore and try to extract cells from the dead tissue near my lungs, to see if it is in fact dead tissue. Please keep me in your thoughts because the test could be inconclusive due to the position where the tissue is, and we are praying for the extraction of cells that can tell us what the hell I have and I can finally get out of here.

I miss you all. Please keep praying and thinking about me.

April 16 at 7:40 AM with 7 notes
tagged: fever: the saga about me

Update, guys.

Still in the hospital. Still don’t know exactly when i am getting out. Still getting fevers round the clock. They hopefully found the source of it though but i will ask you to keep me in your thoughts because it doesn’t sound good or easy. There are signs of dead tissue somewhere near my lungs, and they don’t know how to go about testing the tissue because it is in a very difficult place.

But, aside from thr fevers, today i am feeling a bit good. Still, i appreciate everyone’s good wishes. You are all the best.

April 10 at 12:38 PM with 6 notes
tagged: fever: the saga


old macdonald had a farm *bastille voice* eh oh eh oh eh eh oh eh oh

April 08 at 1:11 AM with 67,390 notes
tagged: omg music is magic

Coming to you from a hospital room, guys.

The fever won’t leave and this is looking more and more like a Dr. House episode.

This blog is a bit on a semi-hiatus as of now. I am only on mobile so, i am sorry.



April 05 at 2:22 AM with 136,620 notes
tagged: well.... captain america